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..I lost someone important today. This morning he slipped away in his sleep after having a heart attack. I don’t have a lot to say. I feel so much agony but at the same time nothing at all. I knew he was going to go some day. I just didn’t know it was going to happen so soon. I wish I could have prepared myself for it. I wish I had talked to him more before this. I was so numb, and so scared for him, I couldn’t bring myself to see him..to talk to him, despite how much I pitied him and loved him so much. Even after everything that happened before and after the divorce.I didn’t even know where he was half the time. I haven’t seen him in over a year, or as far as I know. The last time I saw him he looked so old and withered, I was so afraid of having to see that again. So I turned myself off emotionally whenever I thought about him and couldn’t bring myself to reach him no matter how much I missed him. Now, I wish I did, of course. I’m so disgusted with myself.
Dad, I’m so sorry. I love you so much. I know I’ve had my times when I was cold to you, and so angry with you, but I want you to know that I never stopped loving you. Ever. You were the only one of my parents that actually understood me. You were always a role model to me. I always wanted to be tough and casual like you, because I was your daughter. I was your little girl that you adored so much. I adored you too.
I love you, papa. I hope you know that.
I hope I’ll be able to see you again.
..I lost someone important today. This morning he slipped away in his sleep after having a heart attack. I don’t have a lot to say. I feel so much agony but at the same time nothing at all. I knew he was going to go some day. I just didn’t know it was going to happen so soon. I wish I could have prepared myself for it. I wish I had talked to him more before this. I was so numb, and so scared for him, I couldn’t bring myself to see him..to talk to him, despite how much I pitied him and loved him so much. Even after everything that happened before and after the divorce.I didn’t even know where he was half the time. I haven’t seen him in over a year, or as far as I know. The last time I saw him he looked so old and withered, I was so afraid of having to see that again. So I turned myself off emotionally whenever I thought about him and couldn’t bring myself to reach him no matter how much I missed him. Now, I wish I did, of course. I’m so disgusted with myself.
Dad, I’m so sorry. I love you so much. I know I’ve had my times when I was cold to you, and so angry with you, but I want you to know that I never stopped loving you. Ever. You were the only one of my parents that actually understood me. You were always a role model to me. I always wanted to be tough and casual like you, because I was your daughter. I was your little girl that you adored so much. I adored you too.
I love you, papa. I hope you know that.
I hope I’ll be able to see you again.

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And then they made me their chief..

okay, not really. But it was fun either way..

There's nothing special about me, other than that I have an ask blog on tumbr for Resident Evil's Albert Wesker. I will give you the way to get to it below.
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:iconhorrorlandcop74:
horrorlandcop74 Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2015
How you doing? :huggle:
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generallolz Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
could be better..
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horrorlandcop74 Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2015
Yes, I understand. I'm so sorry for your loss :cry: :heart:
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Amber2002161 Featured By Owner Edited Aug 8, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey, thanks for the watch! Be sure to check out my RP accounts too!
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generallolz Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
sure thing!
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Ashlmet Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2014
HEY HI HELLO

Just wanted to swing by to thank you so much for faving! It really means a lot!

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generallolz Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course, no problem :3
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gabrielsangel Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2013  Student Artist
Happy Birthday!
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generallolz Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you :3
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gabrielsangel Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2013  Student Artist
Welcome!
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